.31.10.07 ' 7:46 PM
ok ppl. i'm seriously fucking lazy to upload pics. coz blogger is damn fucking slow.
yea. the pics at my house is when the bitchicks went over to my house for raya. i wasn't even in a baju kurong la. and i went to nad's house in my skirt.
skirt for raya.
atrocious looking bitch.
and yea. that's my parents.
1 white. 1 black.
LOL.
and the children came out as zebras.
LOL.
ok mia, cut that piece of shitty crap.
and that's the cake i bought for daddy.
perfect family pic at my anut's house bbq pit.
the only missing person was my bro.
and oh, today's halloween. e36r brought candies. had gr8 fun.
i promise you pics will be up by tmr. reallly really. hehe.
tears just keep flowing.
it seems like i've forgotten
what's the date tmr.
what so special about tmr.
i duno if i should wish you or not.
coz i'm sure,
i don matter to you anymore.
tsk tsk.
♥ mia.noob
. ' 2:00 PM
got it from fai's blog.i'm so fucking lazy to research on it.
enjoy.
TOPIC OF THE DAY- CONDOM
"fai, do condoms have expiry dates?"
she answered, "yeah, they do. on the sachet"
and so it all started.
me and ma classmates were discussing
The Guide: How to Use Condoms
The Bottom Line: There are lots of good reasons to use condoms.
Some guys like using condoms because it makes fucking a lot cleaner. Using condoms also means not having to worry about getting or passing on HIV. Condoms can also help reduce the risk of getting or passing on some Sexually Transmitted Infections (STIs) – like gonorrhea or syphilis. If you have one of these infections, it makes it easier for you to get infected with HIV. If you are HIV-positive, having an STI makes is easier to pass HIV on to others.
Follow the tips below the next time you meet Mr. Right (or Mr. Right Now).
Where should I keep them?
* Have them handy so you don't have to get up and interrupt your fun.
* Condoms and the packs they come in are delicate. . . you don't want to squish the air out or tear them.
* Store your condoms in places where they won't get too hot or too cold – like a jacket pocket, or a bedside drawer.
* Getting condoms too hot or cold can damage them, so don't store them in the back pocket or your pants or in the glove compartment of your car.
* Keep condoms in a cool, dry place.
Before putting one on:
* There should be an expiry date on the condom pack, usually indicated as a month and a year. Don't use one that is past the expiry date. If you don't see an expiry date, don't use it: it's probably a gimmick condom.
* Never use latex condoms that are lubricated with nonoxyl-9 (a spermicide), as this can irritate the lining of the anus (ass), increasing your risk for HIV transmission.
* Squeeze the condom pack gently between your fingers. There should be air in the package. If there is no air, don't use the condom since it has probably dried out.
* To open, squeeze the condom to one side of the package and tear the package open with your fingers. Don't use your teeth as this increases the chance of tearing the condom.
Yeah, slip it on!
* You've got to be hard before you put a condom on. If you have trouble staying hard, try using a cock ring to keep your dick hard. Be careful not to keep it too tight.
* Look to see which way the condom is rolled — the tip of the condom should face up before you roll it down. (If you try to put it on the wrong way, discard it and use another one as you may have got pre cum on the condom.)
* Squeeze and hold the tip of the condom while you roll it down your dick with your other hand. Leaving this little bit of room at the tip of the condom helps to hold the cum.
* A condom isn't a winter toque - don't pull the condom to stretch it over the head of your dick.
* Roll the condom down the shaft of the dick (while holding on to the tip).
* Make sure you roll it down all the way to the base of the dick.
Lube it up!
* Some of us like to add a drop of lube to the inside of the condom or on the head of the penis before putting on the condom, to increase sensation. Adding too much, though, can make it easier for the condom to slip off. Don't lube the shaft of your dick before rolling it on.
* Apply water-based lube to the outside of the condom - the more the better. If you're getting fucked, make sure that your ass is well lubed. Keep adding lube while you fuck.
* Water-based lubes may need applying more often as they can dry out more quickly. Silicone-based lubes are more expensive but do not dry out as quickly. Oil-based lubes should never be used with latex condoms as they break down the latex, but they can be used with polyurethane condoms.
* Saliva (spit) is not a very good lube since it dries out quickly.
While fucking:
* If you're getting fucked, check with your hand to make sure the condom is still rolled to the base of the dick and to make sure it hasn't slipped, been taken off, or torn.
* If you're fucking for a long time, change the condom periodicallyas the condom can wear down.
* Certain drugs can make you fuck for a long time before you cum. It's really important to check that the condom is well lubricated, hasn't torn or slipped off, and is changed every so often.
When you're done:
* Pull your dick out while you are still hard or the condom could come off inside his ass. Hold the base of the condom to keep it in place while you pull out.
* If you're getting fucked, make sure that your partner has pulled out with the condom still on his dick.
* To further reduce your risk, some of us like to pull out before we cum and shoot their load on their partner. Just make sure not to aim where there might be a cut or sore.
* Unroll the condom from your dick and tie a knot in it. Throw it in the garbage rather than flushing it down the toilet.
* Wash your dick with soap and warm water. It's also a good idea to urinate (piss) after you fuck.
guys. take note of this.
hope it's helpful for you guys.
=))
♥ mia.noob
.30.10.07 ' 2:05 PM
oh yes. i forgot to blog something about sunday.i went to cab over to my aunt house at simei, and i took the cab from the hotel lobby and guess who was the bell boy?
zul.
yes. zul. zul amrita's friend.
wahahaha.
body power la ehh. damn big. and he is soooo sweeet and he spoke to me the first time.
weeeooooooo.
:)
ok i've just finished my break now.
and ryan says hi to me.
:) right in front of his gf. WAHAHA.
and i saw abhi.
:) he was heading the carpark.
everyone's seems missing today.
eurgh.
and to you shaikh, calm down.
:)
okay. got to get back to ppt.
blog more tonight.
:)
ilovehimstill.
♥ mia.noob
.29.10.07 ' 9:36 PM
hey bitchicks.pics i'll upload tmr yea.
pretty busy.
not much of a good weekend.
busy working.
and oh, alex, that new guy, super hot.
super cute.
super sweet.
super nice.
we took a pic. :)
halloween at work was superb.
we hasd gr8 fun. :)
even that new chef was cute.
until now, i still don't know his name.
=P
had a bbq at my aunt house.
it was my dad's an cousins' birthday celebration.
i surprised my dad by getting him the hotel's finest chocolate cake.
bought him that at a discounted price.
wahuahuahua.
he was pleased.
ok im tired. gotta edit minutes of meeting and mail it to my faci.
eurgh.
didn't i mention to you i hate being the secretary?
flirtatious bitch.
oh, i'm hating myself now.
i'm getting back to the way i am.
♥ mia.noob
.27.10.07 ' 10:56 PM
i duno.i was reading my archives.
then i rmb saying this before in my blogg.
i will still keep waiting till `euu confess.
but now, i'm thinking twice about it.
feelings changes over time.
i duno. everything is like sooooooo diifferent now.
i am your friend for now razif.
i think i'm dying. can i die?
and another one..
friendship lasts longer than relationships.
and i would lyk to keep it as friendship.
for i would rather keep you for as long as i live.
but the fact is that;
i've lost you joel.
♥ mia.noob
. ' 10:03 PM
eyy.bitchicks came over to my house ytd.
weee~ how much i miss them.
janna highlighted her hair.
*jealous*
pics updated soon okie. too shagg la ehh.
went to work today.
was expecting it to be more relaxed kind of thing but it was super duper busy.
with alex coming in at 1, oh god damn it.
but i loooove working with him.
coz he's cute.
and oh, there's a new chef in the house.
HOT. HOT.
:)
and we close the bar at 6 today due to a function.
the dj's there were pretty hot too.
and so vanessa, my manager decided to ask all of us out for dinner.
and aini, my buddy at work, asked me out for dinner too.
so i turned vans down and go with aini as its time fr me to catch up with her.
we had soooo oh lot of catching up.
she's the only person that i can really really like be myself.
as in really truely me.
if you can be her, then you know how i'll be.
:)
from rugby to boys, to fad, to boys, to gays, to boys.
haha.
its been a while.
since i entered ZARA, miss selfridge, topshop, dorothy perkins.
oh man, how i miss shopping with her.
those were the days where we care all bout those splurging, and being those classy woman.
we did a little bit of shopping. A TINY WEEENY one.
:)
and we went to long john to have dinner.
and we were talking about you know, guys, so we were mentioning bout not to settle now you know and stuff.
so we have decided to get guy whose like 60% ang moh, 20%chinese,
and okay, we decided not to discriminate our own race,
another 20% will be malay.
okay what, rojak.
but still, we are 80% racist.
haha. its okay to get these kind of species as ours
but yea,
in times to come,
when we wanna settle down,
we want a guy who have the brains, the looks, the charisma,
and of course,
we still want that perfect guy to be,
malay.
paradox.
♥ mia.noob
.26.10.07 ' 10:27 PM
he's my kind.
he's gonna be mine some day.
:)
i don't really care who you are now.
you've proved to me right over and over again.
you deleted me from your life.
i'm trying hard to now. i just hope i can.
i believe in fate. 7 years later.
♥ mia.noob
. ' 10:04 PM
hi ppl. i just realized something. my good frens comes in pairs. yea. look, all my besties, are all taken in three including me. and that is super weird. from sec, to ite, to coffeehouse peepz, to poolside peepz, to poly peppz. will i get 2 HUBBIES too?
HAHA. FAT HOPE MIA. FAT HOPE.
but im hoping to get twins for my kiddies. =D
friends are my gems.
♥ mia.noob
.23.10.07 ' 10:48 AM
you turned me away.
i'm turning away too.
♥ mia.noob
.22.10.07 ' 8:14 PM
hey noobs.HAHA.
today i was late for school.
went to school with efy and khai.
my rugby mates. how much i miss them.
and rugby.
and so reached class around 945.haha. sat for like 10 mins and then offs i went down for break.
haha.
i'm that mean. did not contribute anything at all.
HAHA.
2nd meeting, all were super- gabra.
haha.
nothing done for worksheet.
stupid culture. i hate learning about culture.
it was HISTORY just now.
for goodness sake.
and break, i went down late, coz had to finish up ppt.
so went down at 130, met up with deon and had a chit chat with her.
and class ended at 4.
super fast.
met up with khai at 445.
went for the thailand service learning trip meeting.
we discussed about our project and stuff.
looking forward to it.
my job is just take photos and organize the christmas party.
we might be partying all night long for new year.
wee woooooo.
i won't be in Singapore for Christmas and New Year ppl.
so do miss me.
=))
and headed home after that super tired.
went home with faizal, shafiq and amir.
=D
have been going to school with the boys lately too.
including najib, danesh, leon.
haha. my bodyguards la ehh.
went home. and here i am.
i'm waiting for my father's friend to come.
his grand daughter uber uber cute.
gonna entertain her.
hehe.
he's a chinese, married to a malay,
daughter uber pretty,
granddaughter uber cute.
im jealous.
some people are lucky.
some people aren't.
and this 24 yr old guy,
name mirza, added me up in msn.
and he's pretty good looking.
just got to know him.
but not really my taste.
i just got to know him ytd midnight and he wanted to fetch me from school today.
im like, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO."
i mean, yea, just knew him like ten mins and he wanted to fetch me from school.
yea, he's well to do. pretty brainy but no.
not now.
i wanna enjoy this peaceful life.
i love my idiot deon.
she makes my day though she's pretty dumb.
=))
i might be a young girl but i know how to have fun.
♥ mia.noob
.21.10.07 ' 3:32 AM
surprise msg from a fuckaholic.bastard: halu as. just dropping by to say how are you and selamat hari raya. maaf zahir dan batin. ku di sini ingin menyusun 10 jari memohon maaf jika ada kesilapan yang ku sudah buat dan harap dimaafkan, halalkan makan minumku. take care. :-)
me: who are you?
bastard: nevermind. its okay. you'll know who am i one fine day. take care and a'kum As.
me: don't expect me to firgive you when i don't know who the hell are you.
bastard: nevermind. it's ok. i know you and you heart wellok. i think i don't want to disturb you since you hate it. i'm just trying to be who i am to you, As. Take care Aslamiah.
you think i don't know who the fuck are you. but i know.
it seems like you're keeping your eyes on me.
i'm not that stupid not to know who you are by the way you texted me.
i'm not that stupid, fucker.
when i said it's over, i really meant it.
after what you've done.
you made me said it.
you fucked a girl behind my back when i was with you.
i've closed the doors for you.
move on.
if this is the way i'm treating him, i guess this is the way joel's treating me too.
i'll just have to accept it.
let nature take it's course.
wasted tears.
♥ mia.noob
. ' 2:56 AM
it was mu's birtday on the 19th of october.his 22nd birthday.
AND SAMANIAH KU.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY.
WHICH FALLS ON THE 20TH OF OCTOBER.
FINALLY. LEGAL.
so we,
me,deon,shaikh,angeline[shaikh's gf],azura,vinod,jessica,roohee,farhana and mu cabot class.
since we are all in different class for this sem, we can easily give the same reasons and meet at the library at 315.
right after our presentations.
we left for marina square.
we went for pool.
tag team with vinod against farhana and mu.
vinod is uber lousy.
he's the worst partner i ever had
coz he can't shoot a single ball in.
it sounds so wrong but yea, i'm the un-pro one break the balls and shot 2 in.
haha.
and some played futball [i think???]
the soccer table thingy you know?
yea. tt's the one.
then we left for cavana for dinner.
we discussed about singlehood and BGR for dinner.
i must say it was hard for roohee.
but hey, she's a strong woman.
and i'm proud of her.
we ate till about 730 and offs to esplanade.
we walked all the way. there and cant find anywhere to sit.
so i suggested to go to the boat quay there.
sit by the riverside. did that with my MEL-FUNCTION once.
and mu and roohee gets so excited.
as we walked, we sang some 90's songs.
really fun.
so we went there.
saw fullerton hotel.
the hotel where i wanna hold my wedding at.
hehe.
we so loving it that jessica made a random snap which is very very artistic.
and we were so proud of her.
her one and only hidden talent.LOL.
pics below. the ones with the fullerton background.
and they found the entrance to my house.
check it out below.
and so offs we went to the riverside.
we crapped alot. and jess love the place.
we envied of shakih and his gf, but oh well,
we still prefer singlehood for now.
alot tot mention about the crappy stuff but yea.
i'll just say one.
Deon admitted she dropped her brain 17 years ago somewhere.
and that's the reason why she so dumb.
a couple of ang mohs attracted me and azura and jez.
we sat till about 1030 and left to mac to do our journals and evaluation
since the closing time for our homework was 1159PM.
we saw this pub full of ang mohs
me and jess and azura wanted to dived into the crowd.
but yea, journal got to be done.
so we sat there for 1/2 an hour and headed home.
reached home nearly midnight.
nearly get slaughtered by mum but she understands it.
friend's b'dae.
a day well spent.
Happy Birthday Mu.
May God Bless You.
i'm so loving singlehood life.
♥ mia.noob
. ' 2:50 AM
there's uber alot of pics for raya. im lazy to upload all of it.here's the pics for raya.
lazy to say much about it.
enjoy.
P.S i know im hot.
=D
♥ mia.noob
.15.10.07 ' 10:16 PM
i duno how to explain things that he does.it's just heartbreaking.
guys will always be guys.
he says he's different, but he just proves to me that he's not.
fasting month has ended.
Selamat Hari Raya ppl.
and deon pronounced Ketupat as Kutupat.
dumb ass.
i remember telling you ppl things happens for a reason.
khai asked me to go for study trip to thailand.
she says she needs companion.
so i said okay.
as i was walking to the lift, i saw KFC.
he's in my school.
cute.
and the malay guys who are goin thailand,
uber-cute.
especially sufyan and razif laa.
hehe. show u guys the pic some days.
razif reminded me of hisyam. his specs.
looking forward to the trip.
=D
thailand here i come. shopppping.
hehe.
i always sent out mass sms to ppl in my phone book,
regardless of my frequency of texting them.
it was random.
i didn't expect Him to reply,
i was rather surprised and it started all over again.
and each time, i feel like crying.
coz i was wondering what does that means.
i know i don't want it to happen.
so when the other Him came into my life,
i guess it's a sign to stop me.
i want to thank that the other Him,
but i guess he'll ignore me.
and i'm hating this.
i still can't get over the other Him.
i hate this.
i'm hearing whispers at night.
and i'm disappointed in you.
u proved me right today.
and tomorrow.
♥ mia.noob
.9.10.07 ' 8:31 PM
i hate enterpriseeeeeee.
did accounting today.
HOW SAD.
it's like a total revision of P&L and Balance Sheet.
And the class learn it all just like that in a day.
god damn it. i took like a whole week in ITE?
all those came rather useful for me.
taught shafiq. and he was like,
"bowen really sucks. did not offer POA. now im suffering."
haha. deficit and surplus, all appears.
omfg.
but pretty okay. at least, i did some financial planning.
:)
im prepared for the future.
its the ending of the fasting month soon.
ppl are still asking me out for dinner.
grr.
so far, i have let a few down coz it clashes.
and hadi ask me out for a date.
gimme advice to turn him down pls.
i'd rather date wan lipas.
fira sent me this mail.
very sweet.
Daniel : I guess we are the left overs in this world.
Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2 persons left in this world without any special someone in our lives.
Daniel: Yup! I don't know what to do.
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game.
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine : I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend.
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the following weeks..
DAY 1:They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film.
DAY 4:They went to the beach & had a picnic... Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together.
DAY 12:Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House.. Jasmine was scared and she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed..
DAY 14:They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future.
The fortune teller said: 'My darlings, please don't waste the time of your lives... spend your time together happily.' Then tears flow from the teller's eyes.
DAY 20:Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something.
DAY 28:They rode on a bus and because of the bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.
DAY 29: 11:37 pm. Daniel & Jasmine were sitting in the park where they first decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine... do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road..
Jasmine: Apple juice would be fine,thanks.
Daniel: Wait for me...
20 minutes later ... a stranger approached Jasmine.
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine : Yes, why? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel & he is critical in the hospital.
11:57pm
The doctor came out from the emergency room & handed out an apple juice & a letter to Jasmine.
Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket.
Jasmine read the letter which says:
Jasmine, this past few days, I realized you are really a cute girl & I am falling for you.. your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game.. & before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life. I love you, Jasmine...
Jasmine crumples the paper & shouted..
'Daniel! I don't want you to die...I love you... Remember that night we saw a meteor?
I mumbled something.. I wished that we would be together forever & never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel... I love you, you cannot do this to me...'
Then the clock strikes 12
Daniel's heart stop pumping.
Then it was the 30th DAY.
loveless.
♥ mia.noob
.7.10.07 ' 11:10 PM
i made my mum bought me a new baju kurung for raya coz im not gonna wear that translucent white kebaya.its too girlish. and minah-ish.
so she bought me this cream baju kurung.
and it fits prefectly.
and my tailored made baju kurung have just arrived too.
maroon and purple.
so that makes 3 of it.
yea.
and i'm broke.
just bought a new compact powder.
lip gloss.
concealer.
top up ez link.
and poof. money all gone.
gonna skip school on friday to work.
to buy blusher, eye liner, mascara, eye shadow.
eurgh.
shouldn't have wasted the money i saved up in my bank.
love is blind.
it just goes away just like that.
so does my money.
lookingforward to tmr.
swimming with my coursemates.
woowee.
eye washing session.
goodbye.
♥ mia.noob
.6.10.07 ' 11:50 PM
i envy people who made their way to jc.and then to A levels.
grr.
i wanna take that test.
god damn it.
make me succesful.
pls.
♥ mia.noob
. ' 10:19 PM
"Everyone in the world needs someone they can depend on. Be their faithful friends,
determined advocates,
or a loving family.
But occasionally in life,
the people we thought,
would always be there for us…
leave.
And if that happens,
it’s amazing.
the lengths we’ll go to.
just to get them back."
♥ mia.noob
.5.10.07 ' 8:40 PM
this is for you.Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be
with you.
istillloveyoudeeply.
♥ mia.noob
.4.10.07 ' 8:39 PM
| You are a Brainy Girl! |
 Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books. You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either! |
♥ mia.noob
. ' 7:55 PM
things happens for a reason.these few days, i've been trying to drill into my brain that
THAT is the fact.
Face it. And move on.
it hurts alot. but i keep telling myself that it's the reality.
And i have been contacting hakim again lately.
yes. again. eurgh.
thanks to the gathering we had recently.
and he told me that he's breaking up with his girl.
for the same reason i've been drilling into my brain.
wasted? yes. it's been a year ++ for them.
i pity samantha. but she agrees to it.
and this really makes me have to face the reality.
And thanks to hirzi for scaring me.
telling me he's back after me.
NO WAY.
he's my buddy for life man.
and that show again,
diari ramadhan rafique,
told me the same thing again.
just because he converts everything changes.
and i keep telling myself.
it happens for a reason.
im just gonna remind myself that over and over again.
bleed.
♥ mia.noob
.2.10.07 ' 8:14 PM
oh hello you people.Some matters that really need to be talked about.
Firstly,
i have an issue here about typical mats.
they have this typical pick up line.
"oh. i took your number from my friend's contact without him noticing..'
and this is not once, or twice.
but thrice.
god damn it. get a life you suckers.
and when i make him tell me who the fucker is, he says it's wan.
and when i made him tell me the full name coz i suspected that fucker and that sucker did not reply.
HOW TYPICAL.
and i shoot him back after that. and he did not reply.
coward.
im not tryingto be arrogant here or whatsoever you're thinking right now.
I'm just fucking pissed off you fucking jew.
ok enuff of the vulgarities.
Secondly,
School sucks again.
Sucks big tym.
Everytime, i'll learn something i can relate back home.
And today i learnt about owing ppl $$.
and surprisingly, coincidentally, shockingly, fuckingly,
my uncle came over to cry his woos about the issue of the same person who owes my dad $$.
and what can my dad do about tt?
he still owe my dad and still have the cheek to come over to share his pathetic problems.
for goodness sake.
these ppl don't have anything better to do uhh?
They are better off dead.
because of them, everyone in the house quarrelled.
can't they leave me fucking alone?
can someone please kill me instead?
really. kill me.
i wanna meet my grandmother over there.
i miss her.
))=
i was watching 'diari ramadhan rafique' and it just make me cry.
they left the grandmother alone and how much she misses them.
it just moved me to tears.
she's the sweetest person.
and i just talked about grandmother to my mum while breaking fast.
[even i didn't fast, coz i vomitted in sch. twice.]
and i cried.
i just miss her so much.
things have been happening lately.
that's why, ppl said, this holy month is the sweetest month.
you would remember your loved ones.
and i really don't want it to end now.
really.
Eurgh.
Thirdly, i hate ppl, esp your fucking mother, telling you not to be arrogant just because you make it into poly.
Can you please understand the pressure im going thru?
I'm fuckingly upset that everyone in school is having a god damn good life and i have to struggle.
struggle in studies which is getting tougher each time.
struggle in the responsibilities in this house just because my bro is handing over part of his responsibilities to me.
struggle to make you happy, coz you keep telling me im your only hope.
struggle to prove it to you and your fucking siblings that have been talking about me.
struggle with taking the blame of my sister's mistake.
I seriously wanna make it happen.
I KNOW YOU WANT IT TOO, BUT GIVE ME A BREAK.
B R E A K.
i really hate this.
how i wish i an be rude for once to shoot my god damn bro about how stupid of him to follow his friend's decision and left his education just like that when he can actually make it thru.
And looking at my hopeless sister, it just hurts me.
And they have made me the source of parents hope in the years to come.
Each time i looked at them quarrelling, because of her, i saw his eyes.
the sadness in his eyes.
i just turned, and walked into my room.
i can sense the pain.
whatever im doing now, is for him.
coz i know he believe in me.
I know i can.
its because we are from 2 different world.
that's why.
and i cry.
♥ mia.noob
.1.10.07 ' 10:54 AM
Have you ever said something was ‘Priceless’?
What was it and why did you consider it as priceless?
This is what i learnt in school today.
This really sucks.
i cant believe it i put family as the most important one but its really contradicting to me now.
Fuck.
i HATE this.
i wish i was resting in peace. ♥ mia.noob
