i'm not supposed to.

i'm not supposed to love.
i'm not supposed to care.
but somehow you're filling up the space
which is bare.

i'm not supposed to love.
i'm not supposed to care.
but you always seems
to be there.

i'm not supposed to love.
i'm not supposed to care.
with you filling up my heart,
maybe another start.

i'm not supposed to love.
i'm not supposed to care.
but you're the reason why,
my heart is healed.

i'm not supposed to love.
i'm not supposed to care.
i really wish to tell you how i feel,
but how do you deal?


i hate that i love you.
i don't even think you noticed me.
i hate that i can't take my eyes off you.
i bet you don't even bother about me.

rahhhh.

today went to play badminton with khai after school.
like finally i exercised!
:)
then zip and yan joined us for awhile.
then we joined the rest of the boys at the soccer court.
then headed home.
damn shagged can?
i feel fat.
i think i wanna be bulimic again.

okay, earlier on in class,
with crappy classmates,
we camwhored.

ppl, look on the bright side.
tmr is the last lesson for sem 2.
:)
it's like finally.
yeyness!

ok bye.

This Guy

There is this guy
I thought I knew.
I really felt like
a dream come true.

With soft brown hair,
And sparkling eyes,
A caring stare,
And taller than me,

When we talk,
In his eyes I could get lost,
But there's also something in his walk,
And his personality I'd take at any cost.

He makes me feel perfect,
Laughing and alive;
Though getting in touch is quite hectic.

Why I keep going could never be described,
Your laughter around me,
The way you serenade me,
So whole when I am with thee -

Apart from you I can't help but miss,
But now I feel different.
I heard of another girl you haven't let go,
And I sit here and lament.

What is going on -
could you please let me know?
I cannot begin to understand,
You seem to hide it so much,

And now you've got me
in the palm of your hand,
only you and me
In fairytale land.

These past days I have hoped with all my heart
That she is with you I prayed not.
I'm not fond of such a part,
But the reason I care is because I like you a lot.

eyy ppl.

hehe. today i feel 1/2 good. 1/2 bad.
okay lame.

good coz, i've took my damn pay.
and i applied job at GAP.
haha.
hope i'll get it.
it's time to quit pan pac like really quit.
no more turning back to it.
LOL.

and bad, yea, like parents again.
sometimes i feel like killing them, but sometimes,
i feel like going to them and hug them tight and say
"i love you and i'm just trying to be the best i can for the sake of my future and yours."
haiz.

okay mia emoooo.

anyway,
i'm addicted to the song
lucy in the sky with diamonds by beetles.
LOL.
aiyahh, tot shouldn't have let me listen to it la!
god damn it.

anyway anyway anyway,
i found my ezlink!
hehe. details not important but yea, i've found it.

and bit-chicks, i have been contacting daddy lately.
haha, when want meet up. lol.
i miss you guys can?

AND KHAI,
LIKE FINALLY YOU FEEL HOW I FEEL.

yea, it's a very gr8 feeling when you didn't expect that someone to be soo special
when they just did simple things that actually makes you go gugu-gaga.
and made your day like i don't know how,
and you feel like rogol-ing him right khai?!
HAHA!
admit!
he's one stuff!
LOL.
:)

all the best okay khai!

hah. okay crapp.
i need to clean up my damn room.
ok bye.


there's so many things that i wanna say to you.



biding.

it was the very last culture lesson.
1 down, 4 more to go.
till the end of this damn sem.













and after reading fyra's blog, carved a smile on my face.
aww, sweet of you girls. thanks :)
they actually had a song for me.

Oh, why you look so sad?
The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now

Don't, be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen a dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
I won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So, if you're mad get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now

Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well, I'm a lot like you

When you're standin' at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
I won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

Take me in into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when,
when the night falls on you, baby
You're feelin' all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
I won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

Take me in into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
Oh, I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you


hahs. sweet.

went for break with yan and yana.
den smoke weed with the rest and then back to class.

then just nice i ended lesson,
ayeb called me up.
he was in rp with aidil and din.
they were here to reg into rp.
LOL.
by the time they reached here, the registration time was already over.
noob.
a waste of my time.
really.
but okay la, they borrowed mine, azip's and jeep's lappie to reg online
to other polys. lol.
kentalans.

then, i lost my damn ezlink card.
fuck can? i lost my damn ezlink card.
its just not the ezlink.
its my favourite cardholder which can hold
my sd card and sim card.
and there's my favourite namecard in it!
god damn it.
thank god i've removed my 10 bucks from the cardholder.
haiz~

and oh ya, daddy called me up.
daddy miss me.
and i miss him too.
he'll be going off to brunei for ns on 14th feb.
i need to go out with him soon.
bit-chicks, wanna join?
and pillay getting married to anita soon.


rahhh! fucking ezlink!
hate my carelessness.
fucking shittttttttttt.



it was perfectly fine in the morning
then it started to get dark
with flashes of lightning
and rumbling thunder.

and i miss you so.
24/7.

hello upper east siders.

im feeling great today.
:)

one of the reasons is that, i am sick and tired of mojo.
i've just ditched him like minutes ago.
fyraaaa. kau tgk laaaa. dier blame akuuuuuuu.
mcm sial uhh.
how could he! after what happened! and how he walked away from me!
okay, you girls can fuck him like i duno how but yea, go fuck him.
coz i'm so happy! i don't have to keep canceling dates with him.
hah! countless times. LOL.
okay i'm evil but now, i'm glad;
glad that i'm free from all.

:)

okay. today work was great.
full strength la seyy. :)
azip kekek.
and so me, azip, jeep and arif muzzain finished work at 3 today.
then me and azip met up with yan, khai, petir and tot at tamp.
we chillamai till like 8 then offs to pasir ris beach.
i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee the beach!
:)
it's the first time; for 2008.
:)
with great ppl, it was just perfect!

i just love it. it's like finally the beach!
ohh, it ends my weekend perfectly.
we left at about 1045 and so here i am.

it was soooooooooooooo nice la.
thanks ppl, for granting my wish.
((:

just one more wish,
i wish for my dream to come true.






ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i believe that
fairytales are for real.

less than three you.

aiyahhhhh.
fadily with lalat laaaaa.
gerams.
but haha, they look sweet together la.
there goes my scandal. lol.
happy for them :)
hot stuffs.

anyway, work wasn't like it used to be today.
it was super boring.
super relax.
super waste of time.

so went off at 245, wasted time by smoking.
with ah boon, khai, aidil and roy to kill time coz i had to punch out at 3.
okay, frankie let me off earlier. cos i'm nice! haha.
and then i waited for jihadi as well.
cos he was sent off at 3 too. haha. and continued night shift at 6.
so to kill his 3 hours, i agreed to accompany him till like 445.
so we went to starbucks to chill chill apple.
so it was just the both of us, on an impromptu date.
LOL.

hahahahahahahah.
okay crapp.
i was just kidding!

then i went off to a family friend's wedding.
okay, i admit. i was rude enuff to pop up late, and wearing like jeans with long sleeve.
majlis orang seyy.
so i relax one corner and listen to songs. and songs. and songs.

and then, there comes my 16-yr-old eye candy.
lol. he was there too! aww. :)

and so he ate with me, accompanying me thru-out.
it's been awhile since i saw him.

so basically, today, is the day where mia is officially back!
mia the biatch!
thanks uhh janna and fyra!
for giving me the "power" to flirt.
haha. okay, maybe not so much.

and btw, since the bitch is back,
i just need to tell you bit-chicks this;
i think i've just dumped aidil.
HAHAHA.
i think i said something harsh to him and then he did not reply.
YES ARH. power to the max!
ok best.

LOL.

okay, tmr working.
ok bye.

Some of the hardest things are easy to achieve
with patience.

i told you i cant sleep!
okay, i was blog-hopping and i was reading one of my ex band mate's blog.
and oh, she reminded me of bowen military band.
oh i so missed it.
those marchings, where i get to tone my leg muscles,(hehs!)
those screamings by band and section leaders,
those stick works,
those instrument polishing sessions,
those JAMMING sessions,
those pep-talk sessions,
those sectionals,
those sucky yet brilliant alumnis,
and altogether, we've lost the old bowen band spirit.
it' no longer the same old band.
it's just another ordinary band which totally lose out to
Tanjong Katong.
i so envy their drummers can!
damn fierce la! those were the SYF band com days.
:(


okay ppl, view this video.
it's 8 minutes long, but hey, view till you get to the finale!
the remix of numb + it's my life.
it's our speciality.
:)

i just love it.
ok i miss my snare. :(

enjoy.
it's pretty small, view it on youtube.
:)

and oh, below it, is tk band.
you can view it and compare.
see at how sleek they were.
oh, i'm so jealous of them.

eyy ppl.

i cant sleep.

ok, i'm super weird. when im damn shagg, i'll have a hard time to get to sleep.
eurgh.
and tmr, i mean later, i'm working morning shift.
and i have to come a little bit earlier to clear some stuffs away from my locker.
2 of the part timers quitted and i don't need to share locker anymore.
:)

COOL OR WHAT?
hehs. just like the my manager's. heh.
that's the thing about being a full timer, you'll have your own personal locker
while the part timers have to share lockers, since you rarely work.
yeyness. ok mia should shut up about lockers coz it's no big deal.
it's just that i'll have a neater locker and more space to stuff my rubbish in my locker!
lol.

okay,
i seriously hate working after a loooooooong day in school.
but it was fun la.
since it was azip + jeep's first day at work,
i sacrifice myself to work with them okay!
haha.
it was super hilarious laa. especially azip.
cos i had to buddy up with him.
and he was so scared to pour the wine into the glass and spilled it.
lol.
and thanks to aidil, one hot stuff there,
hah, was azip + jeep's ex schoolmate.
they were quite relieved as they have their member to work with.
so they were fine there.
:) and aidil guided jeep.
lepas bebanku. hahaha.

had fun at work today.
it's fun. it's fun.

HAHA.
and KHAI.
WHAT DID YOU TELL JIHADI?
he asked me to sing for him.
WTF???

you've got some explanation to do.
grr.

haha.
okay ppl, i wanna sit down one corner and think.
i've got some thinking to do now.
to think before i do anything stupid;again.
LOL.

ok bye.

i'm trying to drill this into my brain;
something precious is worth waiting.
so just get your ass down on the floor mia and wait.
wait like you always did.

okay.
haha.

thanks fyraaaaaa.
for the motivation to flirt.
lol.
okay mia is back!
:)

yea fyraaaaaa.
i started my day off with a very sad dream.
but i when i went down to the bus stop, i made a new friend.
haha.

and jannaaaaaa.
the guy that i made friend with is the one who looks like hisham.
ahaha!
like finally la eh!!
lol. ok mia is such a bitch.

now i'm like flirting alone?
without you girls? gosh.
this is sooo pathetic.

okay okay.
started off with not a bad day,
i'm still feeling soooo down.
i'm so in a holiday mood.
and khai is always bugging me to cabot.
argh.

ok shut up mia.
get back to your lesson.
ok bye.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
its not even the weekend yet and i'm already missing you!

someone, give me a tight slap on my face can?

thanks janna for that wake up call.
i shouldn't have told myself that.
very stupid of me, indeed.

okay, i don't know why in the first place
i said such things! really.
i think i was out of my mind. that time.
and coincidently, ok fuck.
mia shut up.

okay, you girls can fuck aidil one corner.
he so fucking irritating.

okay, i've just finished reading fyra's blog.

oUh! anw, ppL!! Lyk ive saId b4, ivE beeN readIng dIs stOry caLLed
P.S; i Love You...
weLL! wad caN i say! the stOry mOved mE eVa sO mUch!!!!
gOsh!!! iT nVr faiLs tO make mE cravE a smiLe oN my facE oR eveN shed saLty tears dOwn my cheeK...
iT is veRy2 nIce stOry who wiLL remind uS the meanIng oF mOving On...
the meanIng of sOuLmatE.. n i waNN QouTe suMting frOm the bOok,

" Finding someone you love and who loves you back is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. but finding a true soul mate is an even better feeling. A soul mate is someone who understands you like no other, loves you like no other, will be there for you for ever, no matter what. They say that nothing lasts for ever, but I am a firm beLiever in the fact that for some, love lives on even after they're gone. I know a thing or two about having someone like that."

weLL ppL!! N sO we taLk abt LovE!!! speakIng of whicH!! mia!!!!!!!!!!!!
dUn dO it!!! u nOe wad i meaN... c hOw maD every1 aRe weN u eveN mentiOned hIs naMe??? hahaha!!! n teLL hIm 2 geT awaY frOm u!!!!!!
teLL him, i saY, dun mess with my frens-esp! my GIRLfrens...
ouh!! he's nOt wortH it!!! whO dOes he tInk he Is...?
seX gaWdd everY girL drooL fOr...? ouh puh-Leasssseeee!!
eveN speakIng abT me makes mE waNna pUke...
dUn eveN tRy imaginIng it... gawdd!!!!!

he's irrespOnsibLe, sucky feLLow... n trUst me,
he iS sO nOt uR tYpe... nO Longer In my tYpe...
oh firah! now u haf a type huh.... hmmmmmXx...
hah! u deserve sum1 betta girLfren!!!
sum1 mucH bettEr!!! n dUn rusH thIngs hunnY!!!!
we haF a Long Long Long Long waY 2 gO....
atLeast Longer deN mine... im tUrning 19 sOon..
daT meaNs shOrter tYm 4 me....
n gO aheaD darLing!!! go fLirt n haF tOnes oF fun!!!!

whr's dat hottie daT Loves to fLirt!!! cUm on girL!! maKe her shIne agaIn!!!
a piece oF advIce my Love- fLirt whiLe u stiLL caN!!! oUh u nOe wad i meaN...
hahaha!!!


aaahhhh. firah.
so sweet of you to think of me being the flirtatious one among all.
but yea, no mood to flirt laa. all the guys are so sucky.
how to flirt.
maybe if there's fadily or bul, then i might.
HAHA.
and yea firah, i read that book when i was in thailand.
it was one of my friend's book.
and i cried reading it.
it is sweet of him to make her let go of him slowly.

bit-chicks, meet up soon.
next week is my last week of school.
sadly.
yea, we have to meeeeeeeeeet.
you girls have yet to hear the full story from me.
then, you girls can conclude.
we'll meet somewhere convenient okay?
im not going to go down to ite,
as i might bump into someone i dont wish to see.
you girls should know who.

ok bye.

arghhhhh.
my heart tells me to wait.

Natasha Bedingfield -
When you know you know

You taught me a lesson about love today
Love is not a castle in the clouds
Coz there's a storm, it'll all come crashing down
I'd rather find it like a penny on the ground
Coz that's something I can keep and carry around
Truth is not a feather blowin' round in the wind
It's that jump in your heart, goosebumps on your skin
Just pinch me if it's really happening
Coz I'm more awake than I've ever been
And you're the one from my dream
You're out of my mind
And into my heart
You're more than a feeling
More than I could have thought
I can't deny, I can't say love never comes
All I know is, when you know, you know
And I just know

That love has come in the form of you
If someone put me on a witness stand
I'd point to you, a hardcore evidence
You're proof that you don't have to understand
You can still fall into the right hands
You're the one in my dreams

I was a doubter
A typical, won't believe til I see
Oh so grounded, to think that someone like you
Couldn't be right in front of me

And I just know

Plain White T's - A Lonely September.

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own, oh

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
(one more chance tonight)

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not gettin' me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did


i'm sorryyyyyyyyyyyy.
:(

i told myself to go with the flow.
whatever comes by, comes by,
and i'll give it a try.
a try.

unexpectedly,
there is someone.
unexpectedly,
someone i didn't wished for.

it shot my directly.
what a thing to tell myself.
it is rather, stupid of me.


it's just so complicated.

i just want my damn dream to come true.
soon.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.


fuck you mia.

okay.

i was randomly checking my mail and stuff i saw the mail that joel sent to me;
the one he sent to end our relationship.
i read it like thrice,
and i felt nothing.
seriously.

i remember reading it over and over again after the break-up,
crying day and night,
dreaming like a crazy girl,
cos i couldn't accept the fact that we were no longer together.

but now, i've moved on.
yea, thanks to mu, for being there for me as a friend, ensuring that
i will not look back to ponder about the history.
our history.

i guess if you really made an effort
to fade the feeling away, it will.

and now, haiz~ i'm just afraid.
gosh. i shouldn't be feeling this way.
i shouldn't be feeling jealous.

i just need to tell him this.
eurgh. how to?

seriously, i always vent my anger on myself when
it's all about him.
shucks.
now my hands are really swollen.
like really swollen with the blue-black.
fuck it la.

thanks walls, and sorry for hurting you like
i don't know how many times i punch you
like one mad girl.


arghhhh.
say something!!

okay fuck it mia.
face the reality mia.
you suck mia.
all you think about is yourself mia.
love isn't everything mia.
just be happy mia.
fucking happy mia.
screw you mia.

screw you!

this is for you.

Secondhand Serenade - Vulnerable

Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because it's cold outside cold outside it's cold out side
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because it's cold inside cold inside it's cold inside

And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that your scared like me so
Lets pretend were alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don’t care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don’t tell me that I am the only one that’s vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already
I get a B in originality
And it's true I cant go on without you
Your smile makes me see clear
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that your scared like me so
Lets pretend were alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know were unprepared
But I don’t care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don’t tell me that I am the only one that’s vulnerable
Impossible

Slow down girl you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I'm much more you never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn’t mean you shouldn’t bleed
I can be anyone, anything, I promise I can be what you need

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don’t tell me that I am the only one that’s vulnerable
Impossible

when you try so hard to pretend nothing happens,
it just gets harder.

when you try so hard not to fall deeper,
it just gets harder.

when you try so hard not to cry,
it just gets harder.

when you try so hard to put it aside,
it just gets harder.

Your love for me came as a water fall
flowing inside me like never before
you’re love for me something I didn’t see
but baby, I know better now
when you walked in the room that very night
a special feeling just burst inside
it was only you, nobody else but baby,
I know better now

Don’t wanna love you, if you don’t love me
Don’t wanna need you when you won't need me too
Don’t wanna tell you this now
But it wouldn’t be right if I (if I)
Didn’t tell you this tonight

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

And now you’re back inside my house again
I’m trying deeply to explain
cause baby I wanna get it on
and baby, you’re the one for me
and now that I have got you all alone
after all this talking on the phone
I should be strong there’s nothing wrong
I’ll tell you this is where you belong


There was just something in your eyes made me realize
Now I hear voices deep inside telling me,
telling me it’s you and I

Don’t wanna love you, if you don’t love me
Don’t wanna need you when you won't need me too
Don’t wanna tell you this now
But it wouldn’t be right if I (if I)
Didn’t tell you this tonight




i love you laaaaa.

okay ppl.
listen up.
it was friday ytd.

i went off at 2nd break out to meet up with the circle of grin mly peeps.


so me, yan, jeep, khai, azip and petir went to hougang to khai's hs to get the baking stuff
for the fund raising and offs to her house.
tot and liy joined us too.

so we did the bakings and its like 2500 cookies??
oh god.

it's not done yet la.
hope to finish it off by sunday.

had superbly gr8 time and we left her house at 1145pm.
and when we left, it was only like about 300 cookies being made.
haha.
caught the last bus with tot
and liy tawn at khai's house.
i wanted to but had work today. so yea.

did some story-sharing with tot and it was super-hilarious can?
haha.
tot tot, haha get to know him better and you'll see the serious side of him. :)

and so work suck big time today.
first it was super busy.
second i had to OT till 9. supposedly 11 but i bargained. :D
third i left my fucking ear stud in my work pants.
god damn it.

anyway, i made another late resolution for this year.
don't ask me why but i texted my mum when i was bored at work.
ok mia sooo kental.
and guess what did i texted her?
i asked her if she could send me to religious classes every Sunday morning.

-_-

i'm just trying to be a good girl. at least, that will make her feel better about her elder daughter.
well, i know that i have to set good example to my sister.
and that wont hurt me right? as i might be getting more chances to get my
TOTAL FREEDOM back.



you greeted me early morning,
making my day,
promising something that really made me happy.
then later in the evening,
all hopes were shattered.
i don't want my mind to wander so far
but haih~

okay.

i cant sleep.
S-L-E-E-P.

this is so stupid.
i should be feeling tired and should be sleeping now and yet im still having my eyes stuck onto my lappie's screen.

okay.
im depressed.
im still as fat as ever.
im so fucking fat and fugly that even skee is much prettier than me.
(skee is this thailand girl, which jeep claims that she looks way better than me.)

then, im totally mad. coz i havent been able to touch the guitar for like days since the meetings which ended till like 10 pm all the time.
oh gawd.
its not that im lazy to play, its just that my mum says its uberly noisy and its already night time.
people wanna sleep.
god damn it..
is it that awful?
LOL.

anyways.

i've been thinking about you lately; ALOT.

i don't know why but you seem like someone i really dreamed for.
maybe its a dream come true but you seems like a
play hard to get kind of boy.


oh please,
tell me something.
tell me what's on your mind.
this is killing me.

i swear,
forever has now begun.

hey.

i had been pretty busy lately.
from meetings to work to friends.

alright.
had meetings like monday, tuesday and today.

accompanied najib and razif to my workplace for interview.
and they got thru.
:)
hello workmates.

it looks like i wont be having guitar lessons any of these days till the project is over.
eurgh.
wells, hope i'll have the energy for tmr.
baking cookies for the fund raising.
:)

each day, tiny weeny things makes me mad about you.
and yet, you surprised me with simple things that totally changed my mind.
tell me if it was a mistake.
or it was fate.

a simple yet mysterious painting
just like da vinci's.

you're my beautiful portrait;
which i would like to hang up in my room;
forever.

and yes,
i ponned work today.
i wasn't scheduled, so why would i wanna care?
haha.
i'm being mean, but hey, i'm tired.
i just wanna rot in my bed today.
going out for family dinner tonight, so yea.

anyways, got more pics from khai ytd.

im just lazy to transfer everything from the hard disk, so yea, got some of those that have my faces.

so here's more of the thai trip pics.
enjoy yea.

the sunrise. in the plane to thailand.












camwhored a little bit there. hah.












at our pit stop, the condom cottage.
they do sells condoms in key chains here. uber cool.












at the cottage veranda.













at the "Karen Village" our 3d2n home-stay.










our performance for the villagers.











the budak-budak kampong. :)











were having fun while waiting for the rest.

























before leaving karen village. it was yandart's b'dae. :)





























our dorms at "Monsaengdao" School.















the "Lahu" Village. where we went to stay for 2d1n. the river is uber nice. the water was superbly clear.














the only 3 malay girls. :)

the all of us, yan missing.


























agriculture at the school.



















the s'pore volleyball and takraw team. haha.

















the circle of grin team. :)


















at the flower festival.






















before leaving Monsaegdao School.











and the last picture we took before leaving Chiang Mai.

oh i missed it.

cheers.

hey.

yesterday, right after class, met up with khai, azip and yan at the usual lib lepaking room.
haha.

now im soo addicted to that room and just wished that i was there everyday instead of in the class everyday.

anyways, we stayed there till the 9.
i managed to play this i promise you intro laa ehh.
but still suck at it.
got to put in more effort.
like yan says, "no pain, no gain".
HAHA. thanks yan. THANKS UHH.

after that, the 4 of us lepak under the void deck till like 1030.
and yea, me and khai finally managed to learn
Romance D'Amor.
its super duper easy! haha.
and im trying to speed up my finger for
"mimpi yang sempurna". hahaha.

this i promise you is soooo advance la.

anyway, work was okay today.
tips wasn't tt bad.
yea.

vanessa asked me to go down to work tmr.
should i or shouldn't i?
part of me tells me its $$.
the other part says, laziness.

AIYAH.

see how laaa.

hahahaha.

im tired.
ok bye.

hello hello.

:)

ytd, right after presentation, me left class.
met up with yan. just nice he left his class too.
we met at 3 and smoke weed everyday.

haha.
so after smoking weed, we left school.
by the time, it was already raining heavily.

and so we went down to ubi to register for our car licence.

:P

we didn't talked much nor do anything much.
just sleeping through out the long journey.
pathetic? yes. HAHA.

its just a a friend and a friend thingy.
told you.


anyway, today we meeting up again.
to play guitar after school.

:)


i don't know what's the point of you hanging on when you do not trust her anymore.

wasn't really in the mood for school.

went off during lunch and meet up with khai.

we wanted to do up the poster for the CE talk but then,
we ended up having lunch and crapp.

alright, i better stay the whole day in class tmr.

:)


anyway, tmr, i'm going to register fro car licence.
like ,WOW, finally. LOL.

yea, if there's enuff time after school.

going down to yck to register.
and guess who is registering with me?

yandart.
:)

don't get the wrong idea, it's not a date.
we just thought we could register together.
since our target is it get our licence by the end of this year.

:)

okay. im tired.
i wanna get down to business.
learning this i promise you with yandart.
online.
i duno how, but yea.

i've got the basics, but it sounds awful.
i'll just have to practice more.

cheers.

hmm.

i don't know how i should be feeling right now.
happy or what, i also don't know.

yesterday, me and shidee helped yan out to do the newsletter for the service learning trip.
and so we slacked till 930 and headed home.

all the details are not important but yea,

he emphasized on it;
"do not try to rush fate, the best things comes to those who wait."

and he also says, soon,
that someone special, will play this i promise you,
on a guitar.

for me.



see. i don't know how i should be feeling right now.

haih.

so i guess,
i'll just have to wait;
till the time comes.


bit-chicks, i'm sure you girls know how much i wanted a guy to play that song for me
on a guitar.

eurgh, it's like finally, i found.

see, i don't know how i should be feeling right now.

anyway, i'm here with him now, at the library, helping him to do up the newsletter for the school, for the service learning trip.

:D

wait, with khai and azip.

:D

i don't know but i just wanna laugh.

its just pure random coincidence.

i should really just get busy with my work and school.

and losing weight.

yea, my mum wants me to be 38 kg.

she says to me the other night,
"you know what, when i was your age i was 38kg. you've got more to lose.
better start from now. you go get that stuff that i bought for you and abang, to burn all your tummy fats."

-_-

sooooo nerd la my mum.

eurgh.

im so fucking fat.

HELP.

and oh ya, me sharing with fai and mira some fat burner thingy that we can consume to burn all our fats,
HEALTHILY.

and yes, that's my aim for now.
i hope.

:)

haha.

he is just so sweet la. LOL
kental but true.

HAHA.
im trying not to put any high hopes on myself laa.
coz he's attached,
and he just pour out all his sorrows to me.
but yea, im just being a friend there for him.

:)

its always like that.
im used to it luhh.

okay. im bored.
i've been on my bed since morning.
really, there's nothing much to do except for some cleaning up, which is a no - no for me.

i actually forgotten that it is already a new year.
hahas.
its because its my first celebrating new year out of singapore.

oh yes, 2007 has been a pretty good year, and a pretty bad year.
its where i learnt from mistakes and start afresh.

hah! the best in 2007 is that,
i finally get to sleep under the stars, with just a sleeping bag.
:)

hell ya, i managed to fulfill it with yana.

we camped out while the rest slept soundly in their dormitories.
:)

you guys should, really should, try sleeping under the stars, where everything is so calm and peaceful.

alright. alright.

its a brand new year,
and my new year resolutions are not that much.

1) get to my targeted weight, 45kg and maintain it. or less, is even better!
2) top-up my bank account to at least 2.5k.
3) maintain my GPA.
4) be good to my parents.
5) live life to the fullest.

haha. told you not much.
but yea,

just wanna have a healthy life ahead.
:) i just hope it turns out fine.

okay. today is practically my first time, i slacked at home,
the whole day on a SATURDAY.

god damn it.
damn boring can??

okay. at least, i did not make it go to waste.
haha, im onlining and learning how to play a guitar.
LOL.

haha, yes arhh.
yan is going to teach me to play "this i promise you".

:)

wahaha. thanks yandart!

okay, i'm going to get back to get the chords right.

:)

i'll just wait.

my purpose for the thailand trip was to forget about everything about you.

and i did.

but another mistake that i made was,
to fall again.

but this time round, its harder.

hehe.

did anyone

miss me

over the past

2 weeks?

hehe.

LOL.

i had gr8 fun at thailand la seyyyy.

its uber cool.
uber uber cool.

i bought like ten tops?

hahahaha.


cool shit.
but alot spent on food, due to the sucky vege + rice + egg.

ewwww.

we did have chickens, but most of it were chicken bones.
eurgh.

but the new year and x'mas bbq food was superb.
too much to mention but we had seafood and chicken and bananas.

:)

and the best part was, i lost 2 more kg.
cool SHIT!

now my weight is 48kg.

wahahahahahahaha.

im super duper happy.
45kg, here i come.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

sexy babeh!

haha.
ok im tired.
i wanna rest.
will put up pics as soon as i got it from yana.
GRRRR.


ok, the best pics that i have so far, now, is these few ones.
:)
which really made the trip, the most memorable one.

cheers.


haha.

mia
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