CHECH THIS OUT.
IT'S SO GOD DAMN FUNNY.

SPECIALLY FOR
KHAI FANTA MIRINDA.

AMEK KAU!

thanks to khai,
i'm still wide awake.

ahhhh. kau buat aku ketawe non-stop.



"CELAKA BETUL"

-credits; kenji.

work was uber cool shit.
bernice did afternoon shift with me.
not important; but i had gr8 time with her.

i miss khai and farah.
i admit la bitches.
im like super super busy.
shit to spf la.

and yes 12th april,
SYF band com.
i just cant wait.
the heat is there.
but not as much as before.


and i bumped into a fucker today.
a fucker who is a real FUCKER.
cb.

whatever, goodbye.

1!

i just wanna shop till i drop.
i need to breathe; breathe fresh air.

hello.

work was fine.
wagner is so damn fucking hot.
killed time by chatting with him
when there's no customers.

and i wanna get G star raw jeans.
which cost fucking 309 bucks.

and i want that freaking
armani jeans carrier.
calvin klein boxers shorts.
dkny heels.
theory dress.
springfield bag.

cb la mia.

and and and.
guess what? ? ?

my dad bought shee-sha.

YES.
SHEE-SHA.

with all types of flavours.

people, come my house soon to
smoke it till we drop.

and it's in green.
super nice.

:)

i cant wait for pay.
it's coming in in 5 more days.
:)
wee-hoo! =D

800 bucks.

1!

imperfection.

khai.
this is for you.

:)

and me.
featuring chuck bass tercelup melayu, aidil.
LOL.

hey there.

work was kinda of okay.
only that i cant help it but to sit on the fence between therena and faezah.
oh, fucking bitches.

wagner was there.
and THAT CK BOY, i just got to know his name.
shawn. but too bad. he has resigned.
shyt la.

anyways, this is for feyra.

PLEASE READ THIS FEYRA.

i fought with aidil, i think.
i was really broke, thought of loaning some money from my friends.
then it just cross my mind that aidil and a few of my friends owe me money.
my friends are so broke too, so i decided to bug aidil.

i think i blurted all the vulgarities to him and he paid me the ten bucks back.
IMMEDIATELY. LOL.
:) that ten bucks can help me survive till 1st april okay!
go bug him for your money girl. :)
if you need any help, i'll help you.
haha.

and khai, fuckinng awesome la. you get to be part of a runway show.
god damn it. fuck laaaaaaaaaaaaa.
i'm sure you get to see all sizes of dicks. LOL.
tell me what's the size of your model kays.
=P

i was friendster-hopping and i came across richard j.
a friend of mine in pri sch.
he's like fucking nerdy that time.
but now, he's a singer.
he's a mixed eurasian.























fucking awesome.
check out his myspace.

http://www.myspace.com/richardsofresh



1!


i miss the other noob.
i don't know why.

and i just realized,
29/03 is coming soon.
oh fuck that date.

hello there.

i'm just so tired.
i just can't wait for school.
i'm tired of working.
but never tired of making money.
contradicting?
yes.

i don't know what i want to do now.
i'm just lost.

i love the walk at night alone after work.
i would think of nothing.

i can't survive without money.
i know you people too.

is there any kind of job that pay you to sleep?
if there's any, let me know.

anyway,
whatever happens to you in life,
just remember this,


















2!

i don't know.
i just can't think.

fuck this week.

it's been hectic though friends were great.

from XS to S to M to L to XL.
sizes of all dicks.

and if guys calls hot dudettes, chickies,
i'll call hot dudes cockies.
figure that out, how i created it.

inside jokes of crappy friends,
they just made my day.

i forgot what happened yesterday.
i forgot what happened today.

i even forgot what's the date today.
and even tomorrow.

i don't know what's happening.
i'm just doing things that makes me happy.


and to you mojo,
seriously,
THANK GOD I'VE DITCHED YOU.
you son of a bitch.
you think you're so hot, i think you're not.
get a life la.
chee bai.

i don't know what's going on.
i just want to be in a room with a bed and lots of pillows.
and sleep forever and a day.



learn to trust, people.
learn.

a chee bai day.
really.

HAHA.
i think everyone who works at spf isetan orchard hates that
big fat bitch, faezah.

alot of politics la.
all because of that big fat bitch.

and rizuan actually walks away just like that after quarreling with her.
he grabbed his bag, slammed the door then *poof* there he goes.
and he forgot his water bottle.
make me go down to raffles city to pass him,
his one pathetic water bottle.
NOOB.
he was in a good mood before that la when me and zairi and him playing and running around like small kids in the shop. haha.

after awhile, he texted me,
telling me he was at raffles city, working.
chee bai.
me and zairi like, okay, we want to work there too.
with a sad face.
:(
like that. LOL.

then after work, went down to raffles city to pass his bottle.
okay, me and zairi miss the gila2 part of him at work.
see, you start to appreciate things when it's gone.

and so, i make khai go for toilet break.
make her go smoke break with me actually..HAHA.
catch up for awhile and i rushed home cos i need to meet tot
to pass him some stuff.

sat down at the void deck for awhile and
catch up with him too.
haha. he will soon be my workmate at pan pac.
tee-hee-hee.
kecoh kaper brunch.
ader azip, najib, tot.
wahduh.

this so motivate me
to quit spf.

anyways. im counting down days to my pay.
15 more days.
shit.
i'm super broke.


and and and, by the way,
me and zairi and afiqah actually planned the day before to wear
black jeans, white top and cardigan.
and so we did.
yea, you know, to make faezah even furious with us.
check out how short i am.
LOL.



































and oh, last but not least,
that ck boy,
LOL.
sweet la sial tadi.

i want chinese boyfriend.

again.

please?

LOL.

2!

i think i lost my way already.
i don't know how to get home.

'_'

i've been working too hard.
too hard that there's hardly any off days.

i've been stoning too much.
too much that i slept every 5 in the morn.

i've been too excited for school to start soon.
too excited that i am counting down to 8 april.

i hate the fact that i'm super broke now.
yes.

guess the amount of asset i have.

its only $27.70.


HOLY SHIT.



chee bai.



do not ask me out till the 1st of april.

P L E A S E .

and going out with mel-function.
and going out with e36r.
oh shit.
i don't know how.



i need money to breathe.
money.

i can't survive without it.

all i need is my own hardwork money.


i just made new friend with
this chines boy who works at
calvin klein at orchard isetan.

another chinese dude!
tee-hee-hee.
i just love it.

and check out my new hot dude from malta.
we love making love.

LOL.

you know what i mean.























ok people, shut up.
i just need to stay happy while i'm broke.
this is so not me.

:|

0!

and i think i get over malay boys easily.
haha.

i still prefer chinese.

THE MAGIC 'IF'.

It's a small word - if. But it has a power.
It is a key to a lock inside your head.
It is a key that unlocks all the uptight bullshit
that keeps the majority of the world enslaved to a
pattern of so-called reality.
Well, we deal in make-believe.

I mean, you need to ask yourself:
'What would i do if i found myself
in these circumstances?'
You have to look at the parameters
of the situation dictated in whatever
you are playing, then ask yourself
that simple question.
Doing so will unlock the door - it's permission
to play adult 'let's pretend'.

I mean, shit, let's face it -
life is a series of choices,
an endless series of decisions.
Every single thing we do,
everything we say,
what we eat,
how we get to work,
who we fuck,
who we fell in love with,
whatever.

It's all a choice.

We balance on a knife-edge on a daily basis.
And 'if' deals cut in.

Do you understand what i'm saying?
Now in our business, the writer has already
laid out all the environs, scenarios, the words,
the deeds.

it is up to you to take that and ask yourself
what would be necessary for you to carry out
those actions, the actions of your character,
in the circumstances dictated in the writing.

It is important to be 100% honest with yourself
in terms of actions or reactions,

ask yourself the magic 'if' question, and then
act accordingly.

holy cow.
i missed the parliement visit ytd with e36r.
i was off to work.
sadly yes.

chee bai la. i want my pay to come in soon.
im so broke.
left with 80 bucks till 31 march.
how to survive siaa???
today is only the 12th la.
19 days being poor.
shit la.

ytd, after work, met up with azip and tot.
and they went shopping.
jealous. really.
we slacked at raffles city starbucks.
and tot read my book.
he loves it. :)
and headed home around midnight.

cant sleep cos of i-don't-know-what.
then off to work again.
work kinda of okay today.
haha. my eye candy is super hot.
LOL.

and that faezah, is super chee bai.

she came by spf for awhile to drop a note.
and she came with this guy who works at RAOUL at raffles city.
he's GAY.
but he's kinda of hot too.
and he flirted with me. and faezah was jealous.
and you know what she told him?
"eh, why you talk to her? she's married you know!"
he goes, "uhh? really ke?" looking at me.
i rolled my eye at faezah and says "ahhh, ye la, go believe whatever bullshits she tells you,"
and i walked off.
she's thinks she's hot, but i think not.
BITCH.

she's another version of NORBIT if you guys wanna know.
huge and fugly.
and she eats like a pig, gobbling every single bone of KFC chicken.
and she struts like a duck, with the bust and butt out.
gawd! i hate her.

B I T C H .

haha.
i miss wearing sch uni.
ite uni. haha.
those mini skirts with white tops.
alermak. hot kaper.

HAHA. noob.

and daddy is back!
he called me up.

okay, i'm really meeting him.
can't busted him anymore.
he's missing his daughter badly.
hah. lol.

3!

hot sepets.

okay people.

and so i went to my aunt's place for some thingy.
and and and.
i get to eat mango pudding and cake!
kecoh babe!
eat et eat.
till i felt my tummy bloated.
oh wells, im on pills again.
so no worries.
haha. i'll just get rid of it soon; SOON.
might have to do more than that.
perhaps abit of exercise and abit of some other stuffs.

anyways.
ryan is super cute.
it's been awhile since i saw him.
the last time i saw him, he cant even say a single word.
and now he's speaking a whole lot of languages that i don't understand.
and yes, he only understands freaking english.
and he so cute.
his birthday coming soon and we're going to the zoo.
haha.maybe.
if not, just a family party.

and eurgh, bitch-chicks.
aku sedih.
my aunts were like asking me,
"where's joel?"
fuck la.
they are so outdated.
ci bai.
they love him.
ci bai. ci bai. ci bai.

forget about it.
had gr8 fun today.
then, headed to vivo with kak ain.
a well-spent day. oh, i sooo love OFF DAYS!
and shit, more work upcoming weeks.

i remember telling myself,
just be good and wait patiently,
those who bitched un-true things about you will soon get their retribution.
even if it takes a lifetime to prove it.
and even if it takes a lifetime to gain your family's trust.

and guess who i bumped into today?
my freaking cousin, who's father is such a
son of bitch because he bitched about me
that he ruined my damn fucking freedom and life.

with own damn fucking eyes,
i saw who's the bitch now.
that's the way mia, i've just sarcastically told my parents about what me and my sister and my brother saw. baek uhh, at least my siblings were there to support me. HAHA.
and they were kinda of shock too.
and i'm kinda of happy, cos the next moment, my parents received a call from her mum.
details not important
but a lesson to be learnt.
be a bitch, and you'll get what you deserve.
not only you, but all of your loved ones too.

okay i sound so mean, but hey,
don't you think i deserve to be happy about it?
after whatsoever SHITS that happened to me.


people. wake up.
mind your own business.
don't bitch what you don't see.


cheers.



































5!

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
Thought we would last forever and a day
I took one look in his eyes and fell for all his lies
So why do I want this man to stay?

and you have an ugly face. haha.
hey!
*runs*
*screams*
i don't have an ugly face.
you have an ugly face.
you have an ugly face.
you have an ugly face.
your mother have an ugly face.
oops.



haha.

mango mango mango.

mango ads are pissing me everytime i go to work.
cos i'm craving for mango cake and pudding.
i've already told my mama to make one for me since i'm meeting her this sunday.
with all my nieces and nephews and cussies!
i just cant wait to see ryan.
hot stuff.
like chuck bass.
:D
hehe.
and mummy, i want hot aussies!
:)

haha.

anyway, today was gr8.
gr8.
gr8.
gr8.

watched 10,000 B.C.
chilled at esplanade library.
ate ljs.
bought some stuffs. [though i'm broke]
and laughters.

and khai, aku luper amek video.
don't worry. i'll tell you more when i meet you.
there isn't any making love.
teach me. i need to learn LOADS from you.
haha.

and fyra.
i found a shop where they sell
HOGWARTS STUFF.
REAL STUFF.
marauder's map. wands, badges, hogwarts mails,
and lots more!
i bet it cost hundreds! i'm going to get one for myself when i've got my pay.
:) the marauder's map is so fucking cool la.

i'm so in love with harry potter.
too bad they didn't sell robes and tickets to platform 9 3/4.

and jude weasley fernandez,
that son of a bitch called me up.
asking if i wanna work with him, to be a telemarketer.
money's good.
think i can handle 3 jobs?
i don't know.

having 2 jobs is already a hectic.
i get confused sometimes where's my destination in the morning.
oh shit. but money's calling me.
haha. might, i SAID I MIGHT , meet him up for coffee and talk about it.
hope it's just a talk over coffee.

okay.

i suddenly miss 3 things.
out of the blue.

1st: MEL FUNCTION.
















2nd: BRIDGING.















3rd: DADDY AND AMIRUL.
















okay.
toodles.

2!

stop and stare.
i think i'm moving but
going nowhere.

eh hello.
work was a bore till khai and hui qi came to visit me.
hehs.

went for dinner with them and obviously, bitched.
and also met them up after work.
as usual, craps, bitch, what else?
oh yes. getting horny uh hui qi?
LOL.

noobie la hui qi.
kok betol.

anyway, after leaving hui qi and her friend,
that chocolate fudge boy with keju,
me and khai saw MANGO ads.
and so we mango-ed about it.
okay, inside jokes.

and khai.
it's better to be a bitch than a slut yea?
she makes me wanna be a bitch again.
and oh, i think i'm starting to fall for girls.
thanks uh khai.
haha.

and we noobies actually had the same phone,
and both without any brains, dropped down at
somerset instead of dhoby ghaut and ran in again.
not our fault okay.
we were both busy on the phone!
and so we didn't see where we were. lol.

ok ok.
i cant wait for tmr.
still thinking what to wear.
HAHA.

a dress; maybe.

:)

0!


awak cute.

Come and get it
Lost it at the city limit
Say goodbye
'Cause they will find a way to trim it
Everybody lookin' for a silly gimmick
Gotta get away
Can’t take it for another minute

Some claim to have the fortitude
Too shrewd to blow the interlude
Sustaining pain to set a mood
Step out to be renewed

I’ll move you like a baritone
Jungle Brothers on the microphone
Getting over with an undertone
It’s time to turn to stone


1!

hey hello!

guess what?
i ponned work today.
yes.

and so i actually have planned it all out with nad
to surprised the other 2 noobies today.
and yes, jannah's and fyra's reaction, funny la seyy.
both are like

"argh!"
muker jer, tapi tkder suare keluar.
HAHAHAHAHA.

kekek. but cute.
how much i miss them.

and so we headed ite for awhile to meet up with mardhiah.
saw yen, diyana, jonella, hadi, alaaa. all la.
ahaha. and AD!

AD! AD! AD!
EYE CANDY KU!

hehe. =D

tapi sayang, kfc tidak sempatku mencarinya.
haha.
and the new uniform for beauty therapy and retail sucks la uhh.
but hairdressing, lagi worst! but one cute eh nad!
haha.

anyway, we went to terminal 3 to "study".
and they did.
i played worms and do some stupid research thingy.
i've got to work hard on it.
it's time for me to work my brains out. LOL.

and so we camwhored.
but janna, step tk nk masok in the picture.


























i don't know why but i think i look good in the above pic.
HAHA.
MIA NOOB.

anyway, this pic below, is for sam.
she's our guest star for the day.
stepping amek satu gambar jer.
aku tembak kau tau!

and thanks sam!

FOR SAVING MY BUTT IN BUS 27.
AND OH GOSH!
THAT MAT BESIDE YOU,
SAW YOU GRABBING MY BUTT!
MALU SAKK.










3!

kimi ni aitakute.

SPF SUCK.

oh wells. but i am still working there.
shit la.
pay is brought forward to april.
guess i'll have to suffer 1 more month before
getting the total pay of
800++ bucks.
it may looks alot.
but it is still VERY little to me.
very fucking little.

living in singapore is just sucks.
hate the fact that bills are piling.
ez link fares, food, entertainment, ciggies.
BLA BLA BLA.

i think i should quit smoking.
okay, maybe cut down. =X
haha.

and yea khai, THANK GOD
for the other job.
i will just have to depend on that.
and pls, more tips.
i need it for transportation fares!

anyway, work was kinda OKAY.
ladies wear are in stores.

and i hate looking at them.

this fucking bag cost 89 bucks is so god damn nice.
gonna get it once pay is in.
this denim berms cost 79 bucks is so god damn nice.
gonna get it once pay is in.
this polo t cost 49 bucks is so god damn nice.
gonna get it once pay is in.

so fucking much things to get.
oh shit.

i neeeeeeeed to spend.
it's an addict.

and khai, you nerd.
you've got the same phone as me.
HAHA.
noobies use that phone.
welcome to the club.
lol.

and oh yes, manage to catch up with her and huiqi
for abit.
that was great.
cant wait for school.
more bitching i guess.

24!

you were so close.
but it was a mistake we made.
tell me the same old story.
it wont move me.
cos i'm numbed.
fuck it.


oh shit!
i'm sick and tired of living.
can i die?
HAHA.

eh hello.

i've been to malaysia for my cousin's wedding.
i hate the fact that i actually dragged myself there.
oh wells. for the sake of family.

okay, i havent been getting
enough sleep.
enough rest.

i just couldn't sleep even though i'm sleepy.
i don't know what's wrong.
and i don't know what's bothering me.

weird dreams every time i fall asleep.
and maybe, that's the reason why i don't wanna go to sleep.

i just wanna sit down and crap with my friends.
i miss my friends.
and i hate work.

i'm hoping for school to start soon.
and i've told you, i want exams.

ok bye.

20!

maybe it's raining
where our train shall ride,
all the little travellers are warm and snug inside.
rocking, rolling, riding..

-rebecca smith.



revenir à soi moi

okay.

i'm jealous.
why is everyone mugging for exams and i'm not?!
i'm super jealous.

weird, i know.

but i miss those pressure.
haha.

err mum, can i quit rp now?
haha.

i want to sit for exams.
HAHA.

mia
04061989
spy_gemini@hotmail.com


♥ 04/06


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