how do you feel when you see people of your age being pregnant?
don't you feel sorry for them?
don't you feel happy for them to have a baby?
but what's the point?
facing critics and shames.
families and friends and strangers talking about it.

i'm not trying to be mean here.
but look,
this affect the whole of the society's point of view when 1 out of millions of the typical malay girl being pregnant.
okay, maybe not one, but increasing numbers of malay teen pregnancies.
which is still increasing 1,2,3,4..... 83,217 out of millions.
people will think we are cheapos and have no dignity.

okay, i may be stereotyping, but when people like you gets pregnant,
society will have a bad impression on us.
cos you break the norm and set the new norm
making it look like as if being pregnant at the age of 19 is nothing now.
[okay, i sound so sociologist here. bear with me.]

i mean, why?
why are you so dumb to get pregnant.
you wasted your teenage life,
oh, starting adulthood life, WITH A KID.

i sound so traditional, but,
it is so common now that the society is accepting it cos they can't be bothered anymore.
and more of it are happening, and more cases of the same kind is rising.
and they think it's already normal for such thing to happen.

it's like giving green lights for them to do it even more.
come on, look at the future.
they are not even adult and yet they are starting parenthood.

why do i care about people who gets pregnant at the age of 17-19?
why do i even bother?
it's because i care about them.
even i don't know you people well.
it's very sad la.
they are so young, have so much to achieve,
and yet they are going thru so much just because of their lust.
people at their age are still enjoying and they are like thinking of babies.

we don't know what people say.
you can say, don't bother, but,
you've just brought disgrace to your own kind,
your family, your race,
your religion.

i am not that good either in terms of religion,
but i know where i stand and my limits.

i just don't know why and how they can be proud of it.

what's going on with the world man?
what's going on?
where's your fucking ethics?


think, before you do.

who says i have to miss out GSS when i'm pretty broke?
haha.

khai bought bee kee knee.
i already have mine!
so sunday, we gonna ruck and roll in the sand babe!

:)

haha.
by the way,
RJC SUPER COOL.

the school is awesome!
and how i miss mugging and wearing uniforms!
i cant wait to check out more hot dudes there!
hot and brainy! haha!
and their Olevel scores are like 6 points!
CB. I JEALOUS SIA.
OH WELLS, RJC WHAT!

okay, i cant wait for the conference!
and i cant wait for 040608!
=))

<3


JUNE
1st - rugby at sentosa
2nd - SLEEP.
3rd - conference at RJC + contact rugby training
4th - conference at RJC
5th - conference at RJC
6th - work
7th - contact rugby training
8th - work
9th - work
10th - BTT + class bbq
11th - DIN & GANG bbq
12th- SLEEP.
13th - work.
14th - rugby TEAM BONDING http://tamokolionsrfc.blogspot.com/
15th - work.

16th - SCHOOL.

part part 16th tu sial.

haha.

okay, i had great day today.
:0
tmr outs with cousins!
i soooo cant wait.
and congrats to my cousin for giving birth to a girl!
another niece!
name HANA HELENA BTE RIDZUAN WILLES.
name glam mama.
haha.

okay, tata.

are we ready for commitments?
we will learn.
yes, we will.
:)

beach touch this sunday!!

bee - kee - knees ppl!!

:)

YANDART!

I CAUGHT YOU READING MY BLOG!

HA-HA!

Two Gemini individuals will share a great chemistry.
At the same time, both are them are prone to flirtation as well as jealousy.
This can bring some really big troubles in the compatibility of their relationship.
There will be dearth of passion and romance.
In fact, it will be too much to handle.
In this love match, both the individuals will have to learn a little.
They will have to listen to the other partner's opinions, respect his point of view and control their fidgety nature.
Last but not the least,
they will have to learn to move towards commitment,
not away from it.

do you feel me?




i don't think so.

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

things i've done for today:

10am - 2pm : soccer / basketball.
2pm - 4pm: lunch / slack.
4pm - 5pm: UT / slack.

5pm - 9pm: retail therapy / dinner.

retail therapy:
1 canterbury training bag = $26.10
2 pair of havaianas = $33.10

happy / satisfied / cured

had gr8 time with gfs at town.
mummy khai, i want to go to the bar.

please. :)

okay.
i want to emo.

ok bye.

I've run out of complicated theories
So now I'm taking back my words
and I'm preparing for the breakdown

Your t-shirt's lost its smell of you
and the bathroom's still a mess
remind me why we decided this was for the best

Because I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you
love...

if you realized,
we are just playing games.

i don't know why,
i get sick of love easily.

let me hurt you now.
for real.

BREATHE EASY.

LIFE GOES ON.


1) mensus comes again. CB. pain like fuck.
2) i don't know what's on my mind right now.
3) i just feel like crying.
4) i missed rugby training today.
5) i'm reminiscing the history now.
not literally. but in my mind.

6) and you. YOU.


trying hard to smile.

hello suckers.
haha.

it's sunday and i'm home all alone.
should have gone to work.
but im just lazy.
i've just said goodbye to 50 bucks.
oh wells, i can earn money anytime.
but not my sleep.

haha.

went for rugby training on saturday at west coast.
it was super hot la!
around noon, went down to UWC to see
JJC vs RP.

haha.
obviously the rp rugby girls were like W-T-F is she doing here when she's not in rugby??
haha. and so me and farah walked over to support JJC.
it was a good game.

be happy, cos JJC just oh, accidentally missed out 3 tries for you guys not to feel so malu.
haha.
but still, JJC won. hahahahahahaha.


anyways, after the match, wanted to take my pay, but i was too late.
so me and farah cabbed down to my house and invited tot over.

and oh, yes, my parents brother sister weren't home.
all went to m'sia till monday nyt.

and so we lepak, catching up and smoke weed at till tot have to leave around 830
to meet his buddies.

how much i miss tot la.
his laughter! haha!

after that farah left and i slept.
woke up around 530am just to clean my damn house.
sweep, mop, wash and fold clothes, scrub the toilet.
haha. macam maid siol.

then off to work.
work was a CB.
CB CB CB.

worked from 9am to 9pm.
OT.

CB I TELL YOU.

then offs to pasir park to meet
tot, jeep, khai, G, aidil, arep, poyo.
then a few others joined us.

whoa.
then tot was all moody.
cb la tot.
i was trying to be nice.
haha. but we soooo understand you.
he just need sometime to cool down.

and so i spent quality time with khai.
how much i missed bitching with her la.
(:

and we were right.
once we reached the beach, the boys started fishing.

then tot was oh-alright.
he was having so much fun in just his shorts!
w/o any undies. EEW.

then we sat down and played cards all night long.
i drank abit, yea, abit.
i was already sleepy so i gave half of my can over to ayeb.
don't wanna get drunk.
and slept awhile with khai and
thanks uhh khai.
it was ORANGE. not white.
i wasn't drunk!

and arep with his Gossip Girls.
haha. we do had some gg conversation.
funny la.

time flew by very fast and it was already 7am.
grabbed our bags and headed home.

and he called me just to apologized for being rude earlier on.
lucky him for having good ethics.
haha. but hey, we did have good time.
all had fun.
from flying earthworms to drunkard aidil.
XOXO.

i was supposed to be at work at 9am again today but haha.
i was soo tired and i slept my way through till noon.
super tired la.
and with dry contact lenses, my eyes is like super tired and red.


and now
i'm like super lazy to go out.
just wanna rot.

tmr training.
cant wait.

(:

tatas.

and oh~
the grad pics.

cheers.

i finally woke up late today.
woke up at 10 am??

and oh, met the bitch-chicks at ite simei.
wah liao. they GRADUATED. and i'm left with no certs but o's.
they look nice la in those formals.
yeah, when am i graduating.
thanks uhh janna.


*jealous.*

oh gosh, i managed to wash eyes too.
hehe. shahibul kahfi is so fucking hot.
saw all my oh-old eye candies.

baek giler.

had lunch there with them and
hidayat joined us.
aww. KIKI.
had good laughter.

then headed home.
bought flour and stuff to bake cookies.

menjadi eh nad!
it was so nice that mum gave away to my neighbour that
i didn't managed to give any to nad.
sorry nad! next time k?
you come over and help me bake.
=P

then i took a nap for awhile and i woke up at 7pm.
forgot about my date with farah and thiru.
haha.
overslept.

it was niceeeeeeeeee to go back to ite.
it really feels great there compared to rp.

and and and,
I WANT THE PICS FEYRA!
PICS!

:)

alright baby, i wont stare at you anymore.
wo ai kai lun.

yes hui qi, that's his chinese name. =P



and this is my formal pic in ite.
hehe.
oh, i miss those times.
thanks kiki.

yaww people.

had rugby training ytd.
went down with farah, evon and melissa.
we practically dragged ourselves there la.
super tired and sleepy.

but training woke us up.
14 laps of sprinting.
CB i tell you.
then i sprained my boo-hoo-hoo little ankle.
always kena at work.
and then at training.
i was so fucking pissed off.
but i pushed myself.
matches coming up man.

NTU TOUCH ATTACK- 15TH JUNE.
BEACH TOUCH- 6TH OR 7TH JULY.
BLACKS MIDNIGHT 7S- 29-30TH AUGUST.

anyway,
sometimes, i feel like i am too nice.
too nice that people just love to step over my head.
from families to friends.

and make ppl bitched about me. thinking that
their children are oh-so-perfect.
FUCK IT.
face it, your pathetic children are not that good either.
THEY GET FUCKED.
THEY GET DRUNK.
THEY GET DIRTY.

WHOSE ETHICS ARE WORST?
YOU WANNA MESS WITH ME,
I'LL MAKE SURE YOU DIE BECAUSE OF ME.
USE YOUR BRAIN, NO ONE'S PERFECT.
OH, I FORGOT, YOUR FUCKING BRAIN
IS UP IN YOUR LEFT FUCKING ASS.

I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE.
THIS IS LIKE THE
I-DONT-KNOW-HOW-MANY-TIMES
YOU PEOPLE BITCHED ABOUT ME.

I AM GOING TO MAKE SURE YOU DIE BECAUSE OF ME.
I MEAN IT.

AND DON'T EVER WISH TO SEE MY FACE
COS I'M GONNA MAKE SURE YOU
EAT MY SHIT AND DRINK MY PEE.


UNCLE FUCKERS.

let the game begin.

hell-u.

haha.

life has been great lately.

Sunday, went for work.
then headed to meet farah, khai, tot, tot's friend, azip and jeep for dinner.
at cavana.
was very fulfilling.

then later at night, i had ben & jerry's with farah and then cabbed home.
haha.

and ytd,
after school,
went down to town to get canterbury shorts.
and and and, a canterbury polo t.
on sale, hehe.
aper lagi, belanje ah.
and i spent a total of 75 bucks in just 2 hours?
pretty alot.
i earned only 45 bucks in 8 damn hours.
haha.

had dinner with farah and her friend joshua.
after that had abit of walk and headed home.

sent farah off and then he sent me off.
reached home and i slept like pig.

tired luh.

and oh, it's tuesday.
:)

rugby, here i come.

ily.

rugby training was FUN.


fun.fun.fun.

all the guys, FUH, HOT SIOL!

naki damn hot i tell you.
i sooooo looking forward to next training.
i just feel more fresh after each training.

tee - hee - hee.


when i fall in love~

it would be forever~

:)

4th june it is.



i can't wait for my present.

the biggest; ever.


:D


♥

you leave me
wanting nothing
more than
wanting more of
you.


♥

he says:

when we are alone,
i so wanna make love with you.

yes i love you, i do.



:)

okay i saw you guys laughing
at this stupid post of mine.
cb.

o4o6 is coming!
=D

eh, hello.

ytd was an okay day.
till i went for my first rugby training with the tamoko lions at,
i duno where but its beside NTU.
lol.

when i reached there, i thought i saw someone familiar,
then farah went "mia, that's the guy. the yellow one. the tp malay boy"
and i went, "he looks familiar.. OMG! FARHAN?! HIM? WTF?!"

haha.
what a small world.
farah is hooking on farhan jamal, my sec sch friend.
and i cant believe he plays rugby too.
training was okay la.
not that tough.
only that i shy shy.
cos got a lot of boys.

hehehehe.

i promise to be committed to it as i want to be slim.
slim as before.
oh fuck it.

i've got alot more to lose.
motivate me ppl.
motivate.


and oh,
you smell niceeeeeeeeeee.
:)
cair.

haha.

this post is being published under the approval of a FAT NEA man,
Section: 88.


LOL.

school was kinda okay ytd.

until before we, me, tot and khai,
headed home,
we went for a puff first at the bicycle area at the inter there.

then we knew that there's thsi FAT MAN,
who kept a close look at us ever since we sat there to smoke.

and so before we left,
tot said " come on let's go bro, we go throw the cig butt away in the dustbin"
then he came over and say,
"come show me your IC. "
we were like, i-knew-it-kind-of-face
and when he looked at our IC, he was like giving this face,
oh-shit-you-guys-aren't-underage-i-paiseh kind of look.
so to sum it up, his undercover of CSI NEVER MADE IT.
AND CAN NEVER MAKE IT.

LOL.

so he find fault with tot and it was super kecoh i tell you.

then he claims to tot that tot was rude, AND AND AND,
" UNDER SECTION: 88, YOU CAN BE FINE FOR BEING RUDE TO AN OFFICER
AND OH, YOU'RE OLD ENOUGH TO BE JAILED UP"

haha. just because we are 19 and your undercover agent cannot make it you threatening us.
and oh, he knew every single SECTION, even the exact number of it.

section 88? oh, such coincidence,
we were giggling.
haha.

and suddenly all his "GANG "
came over and was like asking, "what? underage ah?"

wahliao! just because we are short and small!
CB.

stoooopid i tell you.
after that, when it's over, we walked over to the dustbin to throw the
cigg butt and smoke again at the other side.
haha.


what a day to remember.

SECTION: 88


CB.



haha.
anyways, all human races who have dicks are
fuggers.
fug.
fug.
fug.

haha.

but ilikeyou. (:

i am fucking bored.
rotting at home like a pig.

eurgh.

look on the brighter side,
it's a month to my 19th birthday.
tee-hee-hee

thankie-you very much
to my dear friend.
for everything.
you sexy pantat.
i am looking forward to school tomorrow.

:)

okay bye.


you know you love me.
xoxo,
gossip girl.

spent the whole day at work.
work was fine.
thank god there's azip.
at least we can joke around and crapp.
and he spilled freshly carrot juice on my shoes!
damn it.
but it's my fault also laa.
fucking hot spanish men makes me melt.
haha.

and ppl, check out fai's hot pic in her blog.
it's fucking hot.
and i really mean it.
here you go.













and check this out ppl.
this is so cute.




tatas~

where'smybutt?

i almost died today.
died for my UT.

cos that fucking joel,
i did not invited him to sit beside me.
and he talked so ever much,
he typed super loud which annoyed me.
and i think he annoyed everyone in the class.
irritating. bitch.

nevertheless,
friends made my day.
HE made my day.


and daddy contacted me.
oh, i miss him.

you know you love me.
xoxo, gossip girl.

it's like 1 in the morning now and i'm like
freaking awake.

school suck today.
though i did pretty well.
and if i don't get an A today,
i'll kill that fucking faci for sure.

went home straight after school.
for the first time, after school open,
i reached home at 530.
that is really early. for me.
haha.

i showered and obviously lie down on my bed,
watching tv.

and i dozed off at around 7 till like 12+am.

haha. pig, i know.
just feeling tired and need more sleep.
since i've been waking up at 7am every morning
automatically.

it's labour day and it's Melissa's birthday.
my fellow DOAL mate.

Happy Birthday Girl! :)














and as it was super boring in class today,
with adeline's dslr,
we managed to capture the finest moment of
our class's faggots.

hakim look seductive.















haha!

okay. enuff.
i'm just feeling like as if i need to kill myself.
i don't know why.


0406 thingy.
ilovenoobwithcutebutt.
:)

mia
04061989
spy_gemini@hotmail.com


♥ 04/06


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