.
life has been good lately.
though, as usual, i am having issues with my moneyyyy.
it's always an issue.

anywoooots,
i'm a certified 1 star kayaker.
0.0

and i stupidly did not sign up for 2 star.
-.-
i should have lah.
but nevermindssssssssss.

and now i'm a full time slacker at home.
really, i am hoping for more cKIDS activities which is on it's way
so i can at least waste god damn time and earn something.
=D

holidays end quick!
i want a busy schedule
+ attachment + staying awayyyyy from home.
:|


okays,
here's a random song which i have been listening today.
i'll post more if i feel like or hear anything that depicts my emotions right now.

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i made it to the summit of kerinchi.
though the fear in me was superbly out of the way.
haha.


alps team.




and to you you you you you,
i love you deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeply.
hehehe.
muacks muacks.

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dependent?
much.
i always ponder on things that i might done wrongly.
i know i am dependent on you.
but to a certain extent, i think, i am not.

yes, i might, cos you've stepped into my life.
and has an impact on me.
but, i think, i have changed from what i used to be as a girlfriend,
and be more independent a i do not want history to repeat itself.

i have given u much space.
i have not been whining alot so that you wont get sick of me.
i have being myself alot and knows that your friends, best friends
are your priorities.
i know i am being seconded.
i've respect you for that's what you want, they want.
i've being trying very hard to let it all go;
even if it hurts me so so much.


and i'm sorry, but i think,
they are the ones who are dependent on you.
cos, they are afraid that you might go away from them,
and lose you.

tell me,
which girl would not be scared if her boyfriend leaves her?
which girl won't feel vulnerable if she's being left all alone
on the street?

i don't know.
let's look from both sides.
i think both parties are dependent on you.
i don't mean to hurt you baby,
but i know where i stand, as gf,
who has a bf who as much girls best friends.
but this is what i think.
i know they want you to be with them
as much as i do.
but i think we've done it pretty well.
maybe it's not clearly seen by them the efforts i've put in.
i don't know. i'm sad.
lets talk about it.


hmmm.

i have some thinking to do.
emo songs, here i come.
till then.

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a well spent post-valentine's day at sentosa.
a very nice one.
thanks baby.
i heart you so much.

over the rainbow......
HEHE.

muacks. love you la.


and i wont be blogging till i'm back from kerinchi.
HEHE.
till then people!
take care!
=D

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i still remember the old gossip girl.
the old serena.
the old dan.

and how they made it thru.

and so it reminded me how far i've gone
to make things work.

and it's worth it.

and baby,
thanks for that gift.
hehehehehehehehe.
it is more than what i expected.
it cost more than a diamond ring.
more than a classy dinner.
more than a dress every girl dream of.
it is more than what every girl yearns for.

thanks baby.
there's nothing that could replace it.

and i bet, every other girl out there is jealous of me right now.
hehehehehehehehe.


MUACKS.
ILY DEEP DEEP.

hehehe.
more webcm please? hehe.
=P

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i wonder,
what's the big hu-hu ha-ha about valentine's day?
it's nothing special.
really.

you don't need to show the people you love
on valentine's day.
cos i believe that you show them love everyday.
that everyday things mount up to be a very special thing for them
and that is what i call
love.



i love you khairuzzaman.
hehe.
ahhhhhhhhh, i'm addict to your smell.
hehehehehehe.
*covers face and run*

.
ok this shows how bored i am.
lols.

anyways,
i find that this picture shows how happy i am.
i just love this picture laaaaaaaa.
damn it.



lol.

OK MIA RANDOM.
MIA SHUT UP.

.
hehe.
they called it the hibernation week.
will do a run or two over the weekend.
haven't been running these few days.

and now, i just can't stop smiling.
hehehehehehehehe.
my baby is just too cute to handle.
simple things he does makes me smile like a small kid.
how can i not love him you tell me?

every single thing he does just make me fall for him deeper and deeper
each day.

and hehe, this is random.
i like the smell of him.
hmmmmmmmmmm.
hehe.


daaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

.
check us out.
we so cute.

=D
i love you baby!

see see see,
got diamond ring lagi.
hehehe.
i shyyyyyyyyyy.
purr.

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i love you baby.
i do.
and you know it.

.

things happened for a reason.


everything will be okay
in the end.

if it's not okay
it's not the end.


i know it will...

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a busier schedule for this hols, definitely.
a new job, i think.
more time with love, perhaps.


******

life has been both bad and good.
i'm trying to keep up with my friends as much as i could for this hols.
more enjoyment for now;
as attachment starting soon in april.

love has been so cute these days.
and charming.
and fantastic.
and sweet.

okay, i should stop promoting. hehe.


i love you la baby.
muacks. muacks.
=D



goodnight people.